-Isaiah 6:8 New International Version-
My time to regroup also involved the question, do I want to continue in this career? Indeed, I had just spent a gigantic amount of time, money, blood, sweat, and tears to further my career path, and now I contemplated, do I need and want to do something else? If so, what would I like to do? With all of my questions, I also wondered if I had partially lost my mind.
When my sanity returned, I felt as if I had valid considerations. Due to job availability, I would most likely have to move to another not so sunny state, leave my beloved family, and the beach. On the other hand, I would not miss the high-priced housing, the traffic, nor the ever-increasing crowds of Southern California.
As in other times, two roads diverged. Like in the past, I walked and prayed. I have always found these times of reflection help me to combine my head and the whisper in my heart. Then one day I heard my still small voice say, “Settle yourself in teaching.”
Again, the call from heaven gave me a message that always seems like a tattoo upon my soul, yet, somehow gets lost by my wanderings. I decided this time, I might resolve my confusion. Hence, I opened my dictionary to the word, settle, so I could get a clearer perspective.
According to Mr. Webster, settle means “to appoint, resolve definitely, and conclusively; to take up residence; to become established in; satisfied.” Hmm, I thought, I like to settle with some good food, settle with nature as I ride my bike, and I find few situations more enjoyable than to settle in my bed. However, while teaching regularly seemed to call me, I repeatedly knew that I could rarely seem to settle with this ever present path. Even after I won a teaching award something did not seem right with my spirit. Perhaps, I needed a new perspective.
Throughout the week, I pondered this personal debate. I thought more about the bible and how some of the characters were called and empowered. Many times they were initially in different positions and places such as Esther in the palace and Moses in the desert.
Like me, these biblical characters were initially surprised, questioned, and had to have a few more conversations about these so-called heavenly requests. In Esther’s case, her cousin, Mordecai, asked her to put her life on the line and approach the King to rescue her people the Jews from a death sentence. Meanwhile, Moses got a call from God through a burning bush to lead his people the Egyptians from slavery into their Promised Land of Canaan.
Eventually, Esther and Moses said, “Yes!” For Esther, the King extended the golden scepter which meant he would give her favor for her request and he did. In Moses case, among miracles of manna and quail for daily sustenance, God parted the Red Sea and his people went through on dry land.
As I thought more about these calls, the answers, and the many miracles, I wondered how anyone could not shout to God as Isaiah did in Isaiah 6:8 (New International Version), “Here I am. Send me!” Once again, I reflected upon my call to teach. Now, not only did I feel happy but hopeful! Indeed, what greater call can one receive than to educate and equip others so that they can have a new lease on life!